I write when the bottom is sinking in again
and the Snafu rises to the surface.
Sometimes writing a poem has the effect of
sucking all the Bad out, and diluting the poison.
I write when the mania has taken control
and after the screams have subsided
or are drowned out by the deep silent sobs
and the shuddering fibers of my thundering heart.
I write when there is no other way to speak
when the words refuse to be dragged
from their pages where they are neatly shelved
hidden shyly behind thoughts and whims.
I write when I am alone, not forgotten
as much as being un-present, invisible at night,
lonely and merely outside of my realm of being
lost and quite unaware of existence.
I write when in a crowded room of laughter and jest
…a make-believe woman far from magical dream scenes,
waiting quietly for something unknown and unexpected
returning from a place she never had been.
I write on an airplane, lifting off into the sun
embarking on a journey to the mysterious lands
beyond comprehension or itinerary, planned or imagined;
faceless strangers for companion, confidences, and comfort.
I write in hotel rooms, or tropical cabanas, by swimming pools…
in restaurants and cafés, in city squares and gardens,
by convent walls with crumbling paths of ancient stone
in sun-baked patios cooled by humming, whirling fans.
I write in trees–high in the branches, among bird’s nests and aeries
hidden from prying eyes that would observe or edit, or criticize…
the thoughts and ideas that appear to be written in flowing script,
too fine to be human–word letters shaped with flourish and flair.
I write in buses, (in between naps,) inspired by wheel sounds on pavement,
the hiss of the door and the pull of the brakes, give texture of sensation
to the passing landscape–punctuated with traffic lights and bus stops,
and spend the travel time enjoying the skills of the driver.
I write in bed, holding a fat notebook precariously, (an impossible position,)
gripping unyielding edges until my hand aches and throbs so the pencil rebels…
defying legibility of penmanship, the rational thought of re-settling begins to intrude…. or the Cat succeeds in dislodging my grip.
I write the best, in my opinion–in my Mind. But alas! thoughts are fleeting!
The challenge: to timely capture elusive expressions of tender intuition…
those whispers that transverse the deep realms of the conscious mind
…before they can disappear without having been born.
©Sometimes,2016
“I write the best, in my opinion–in my Mind…” – OMG, Yes. Where do the words go? Its perfect, its beautiful in my brain and then when I start to put it down its gone. I remember that it existed but I can’t find it. Its AWFUL.
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Sometimes a word will slip away while I am writing it
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Keep writing…..can be most revealing…especially when one revisits hat one has written….sit back and reflect…..Can be most amusing, too! 😉 Hugs!
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ever read old term papers from school days? hilarious…even college level
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Yes….I have! Kept Essays and Papers for years….and full notes on Lectures and Papers delivered as well. The earlier ones really embarrassed….sometimes. 😉
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sobering, aren’t they? something that seemed really good at the time can be pretty funny at times
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I have one I wrote on Diego Rivera, has a note in red: “you can do better than this!” 🙂
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Ah the joys of writing. How often do I wake up in the middle of the night with thoughts and ideas that vanish before I can write them down. You penned this beautifully.
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scribble them down…they say that works for dreams too…sometimes what I note in half-sleep is completely mysterious by light of day 🙂 I haven’t gotten into that habit of jotting stuff down in sleep state.
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I used to keep a dream diary by my bed years ago. It was good and I kept it up for a while, but then it became too hard. Maybe I just got lazy!
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I’m not good at that either,by time I find the pad and paperI have forgotten what to write.
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Definitely.
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Oh, do I relate to that last stanza especially.
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🙂 it might be easy to just rearrange pillows and stuff, but when I want to write I want to write–not move furniture around! 🙂
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I love this! May I reblog?
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I will be honored! thank you…
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Reblogged this on WritersDream9 and commented:
She writes the poet’s soul so well.
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oooh, this is high praise indeed! I’m thrilled. The Poet’s Soul…. how cool is that! 🙂
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wow. So Glad Carol reblogged this. I don’t think I have stumbled upon your blog before. What a wonderful poem that truly captures the writing in all of us in one of its stanzas! I see myself in your words. Incredible!
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thanks Melinda, I’m so pleased that Carol re-posted my poem. I think I am on one of the sites with you, but haven’t posted recently.
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You’re welcome. It gets hard to keep track of where we’ve been and written on here doesn’t it? There are so many challenges and classes. 🙂 I’m glad we crossed paths again. 😀
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it’s partly that I’m too lazy to look it up…duh… I’ll fix it
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I am too…I will find that link
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It’s okay if you don’t 🙂 I won’t tell the link police (so glad they don’t exist!)
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Magpie Tales…
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I’d wondered if it was. I haven’t done any of the prompts in awhile.
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I found it when I searched my site. You also contribute to others that I see frequently, maybe Carol’s site. Mr. Linky is the key?
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I contribute lately to Mindlovemisery’s Menagerie, Color Your World and a few wordles. I’ve tried some other challenges but found them to be too contentious.
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thanks for that information. I haven’t contributed to them although I want to. Also Cee’s challenge…
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I like her site and her posts but I haven’t done any of her challenges.
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its fun, I like to play with photos
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Cool, I like the writing challenges
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I do too, especially poetry and photography. I need to make a list of the challenges I want to do, over-organize as I do. 🙂
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Reblogged this on SOMETIMES.
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